Here is the thing: Right now, in this moment, I am choosing to have hope for fall.
Not just for myself but on behalf of those around me.
We all need some hope after a summer of drought and I’m going to find it for us.
When we were kids, the physical seasons meant more.
We waited for summer break, fall meant seeing friends again and the thrill or terror of a new school year. Winter meant Christmas and break. Spring brought sports and school plays and the rounding out of the school year.
And then summer came once more.
Life was built around the actual seasons and it worked. We knew when one thing would end and another begin.
But in adulthood, seasons mean something different.
The ever lovely full of wisdom teacher Victoria has one of my favorite illustrations and reminders to me in regards to tiny humans.
Victoria’s tiny humans are 12-24 months. When they experience things like teething or a diaper rash or a sickness they can’t verbally explain, she likes to remind the other teachers in her classroom of this when a tiny human is incapable of being consoled (the following is as direct of a quote as I could remember)
“They don’t know what’s happening and they don’t know if the pain is ever going to end. All they know is it’s happening now and this is how life is now. They’ve only been around for so many months, so like, this must be how it is now.”
New tiny humans don’t know about seasons, they don’t know the pain is going to go away. They probably think this is just how it is.
And that sucks.
I’ve realized that there are things in my life, seasons in my life that have felt so permanent that I feel that same way.
“This must be how it is now”
And that sucks.
Have you ever thought that? Like you don’t know if something in your life is ever going to end. It just showed up, you don’t know where it came from, but that must be how it’s going to be.
It’s very defeating.
And that’s why, to the best of my ability and strength I am going to fight for hope for myself and on behalf of others.
I’m going to decide that the changing of seasons does change something.
That is does mean something.
Just like when we were kids.
The fall can once again mean something new. Something fresh. Another chapter.
I believe beyond a shadow of a doubt we have the ability to turn our own pages. We can choose to say “all done friends” to something, someone, somewhere.
So, to you my sweet friend reading this, whether or not I’ve ever met you, I want to remind you of something.
This is not how it’s going to be forever.
This is not how your life is now.
This is not a new appendage you have to carry.
This will end.
You can turn the page.
Fall is coming.