I have to admit when I got this idea this morning I internally rolled my eyes. Because as a single human on Valentine’s day it feels incredibly cliché.
But, sometimes the most clich’ things are the most true things so like…here we go.
A love letter to myself.
To the badass that is Meg Reeve,
Wow, honestly wow. I am having trouble articulating how far you’ve come, how much more comfortable you are in your own skin.
How, shockingly so, the last year has been a game changer.
I know you’re sitting there, alone, in your cozy chair with a mimosa that holds a half a bottle of champagne and you’re contemplating what takeout you’re going to treat yourself to, as you ponder the words you’re saying to yourself.
But man, look at you.
You’ve come a long from the girl who didn’t really know who she was in college, who was constantly questioning her worth inwardly, who just didn’t really know how the fierceness she held.
And I know. I know that comparison is a rough game. I know it pops up more than you’d like it to. I know sometimes that the comparison game hurts your soul.
But, man. You’re doing it.
I know that your closet is filled with clothes you’d never even thought yourself capable of wearing. You have own more two piece bathing suits then one pieces.
You are truly living up to the “wear what makes you feel good” mantra you came into all those years ago.
You’ve surrounded yourself with people who never cease to hype you up and cause you to be the self you never thought capable of being.
I’m proud of you.
And I adore the woman you’re becoming.
I know you’ve spent a lot of years saying you don’t need xyz, but not truly believing it. I know you’ve spent a lot of years choosing to be stronger than you have the capacity to be.
And even though you are still rolling your eyes at typing these words out something in you is so hoping that they won’t just be for you but for someone else who needs hyping up and a reminder that they are all they need.
You’ve taken a long time to come to that headspace. You aren’t perfect at it (but who is). You’ve had points in your life that have hindered who you are and you’ve been fighting to get those pieces back.
I know that it hasn’t been easy. You’ve had to prove to yourself that you’re worth getting those things back.
Spoiler alert: you still are worth getting those things back.
So keep fucking going.
I love you more than I can say.
(and I know that hasn’t always been the case)
Now order yourself some fancy take out and watch the third “To all the boys I’ve loved” while curled up in your bed.