Normally when I write a blog about a year in my life I go back over blogs and pictures and try to think of events and different highlights of the last 12 months in my life.
32 feels a bit like a blur of emotions.
It’s funny because big things happened. Good things, not so good things. Friendships dropped off, some became stronger.
I developed new traditions and became more rooted.
But, to me, if I had to think of a theme of this year I believe it is a theme of wrestling with God and myself.
32 was about working on healing from events that completely changed parts of myself. 32 was about wrestling with the desire to run. The desire to step away from being known. 32 has been about truly realizing who I am in spite of who I think I am.
I had a lot of hard conversations in 32. In all the areas of my life.
I had to come to terms (and I still am doing so) of being known. I had to come to terms with being good at what I do.
I had to come to terms that my relationship with God is directly correlated with how I view myself.
I don’t have a lot of answers at the end of 32.
I have a lot of tired. A lot of beverages. A lot of laughter. A lot of friends.
And I think, maybe, I have a lot of hope.
This one is short and sweet, because life seems more ongoing then it ever has and this season I’m living in feels very in the midst of and less at an actually end.
So. I guess all there is to say is this:
Thank you to all those this year who have given me space.
To all those this year who have NOT given me space.
To those I’ve split bottles of wine with.
(Or done shots of tequila with)
To those who have entrusted me with their tiny humans.
To those I share sacred space with.
Thank you to those who know my 20%.
To those who have listened to be ramble
And to those who have allowed me to listen to theirs.
Thank you to my people.
You know who you are.